Better On Holiday

if it werent for the calender telling me other wise and the media beating me over the head with a yule log.... id never know it was less than a week before christmas. it feels like mid january. which is to say..... its cold. thats it. i dont feel warm inside. i dont feel special. i am not overcome by holiday spirit. its just cold.

theres one other sign of the holidays... my empty checking account. yup gotta love that holiday shopping. already took care of my moms, my godmother's and my friend melissa's gifts. everyone else i either wont see till after the holidays, giving me more time, or i just dont know what to get. like my dad for instance, i dunno what the hell to get him. blah. got my godmother a wireless router and everyone else music. last year i bought my sister a video games.... but this year my mom got her a bike and my dad got her roller blades.... so shes good to go. i dunno about my brother. i might just get him a movie i want. and say its for him. so i can watch it. nice eh?

today was quite a day. it began last night when i couldnt sleep, continued to this morning when i over slept and wasnt awoken and was an hour late for work. i then worked straight on through 2 without breakfast or lunch. finally had lunch only to have to take my brother to a friends house, making me 10 minutes late to return from lunch. i came home to an empty house. but that changed when i picked up my brother and my mom and sister came home a little later. they already ate. i wasnt really hungry and was in no mood to discuss things. i was online talking to people getting restless when melissa said she was gonna take off from home. hmm... ok. me too. so we went to lyons for a milkshake to get away from our respective loving families (see moblog). man was it nice to be able to just leave and actually have somewhere to go. only to come home to a dog that needed to be walked and to try to take a shower with no shower curtain. man that was a spirited conversation. *sigh* why am i not asleep? looks like its gonna be another fun night. thank goodness its the holidays, or might be feeling depressed....