Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?

"money doesn't buy happiness. but it can buy a more pleasant form of misery."
my friends seem to think i have alot of money. well guess what, i feel like shit, maybe now they feel better about themselves. for the first time in my life, i actually dread coming home. i enjoy leaving work. and i enjoy leaving school. but when i realize that i am just going hime.. somehow that takes the joy out of leaving work. i dont knwo why.. i guess because i live here. to be honest, im bored of it. every damn day, i come home. every damn day, i wake up, at home. every damn day i am here, usually doing nothing. and its gotten old. very old. just about all my friends live 50+ miles away. i cant just drive there every weekend. plus, i dont wanna just show up uninvited, like you might do to a friend who lives down the street. i do have a couple of friends around here, but only one of wich that i "communicate" with daily. and we've never "hung out" before. otherwise, people up here suck. i've forgotten what its like down in the city, but up here.. well, it could be better.

so i guess tomorows easter? i find it somewhat odd that a local church is holding an easter egg hunt. thats like McDonalds selling salads.
wait....
OOOHHHHHHHH now i get it. ;-)

anyways. been looking forward to going to Rash's house next weekend. founf out last night that its actually the following weekend. i guess i WILL join my familia down to the apropriately named town of Bakersfield. (town.... it has a population aproaching that of San Francisco's)

ANYWAYS!
i guess i'm on spring break. thats great, now i'll have all kindsa time to... do HW. woppty godamn doo!!!!
as you noticed from my previous post, i finally got my long-awaited sidekick. for those yof you who don't know what it is, its a cell phone based data.. ummm... device. it looks like a screen with a few buttons and a scroll wheel. but the screen flips clockwise and above the main body revealing a full qwerty keyboard. making it really easy to IM and surf the web. o yeah, its got unlimited AIM and webincluded in its plan. in a word. its pimp.

not that im showing off, though i guess thats what im doing, the sidekick completes my trifecta of geek bling. first was the digital camera that i bought for the car show last year... naturally it came about a week late. second was SUPOSED to be the sidekick, but despite the fact that we went to get it in february, i didnt get it til a week ago. one ended up being my second addition was the iPod, which replaced my digi cam as my favorite gadget. 500+ songs so far, thats 1.6 days folks. however, due to lack of useability in my truck, the iPod has since been upstaged by the sidekick. nothing like texting someone while yer at a stoplight, or at starbickls waiting for an order.... or.. anywhere. thats the beauty of it. some think its kinda scary how people can just IM you anywhere.. but how is that diffewrent from a cell phone? oh, and it also has web browsing!!! how cool is that. google at my fingertips. this has enormous potential.

This is a test.

This is a test of the updating-my-blog-using-my-sidekick system.

This is only a test.

If this were an actual update, it would contain actual information about my day.

We now return you to your regularly scheduled internet.

you ever feel like yer sick of doing nothing.. but really wanna do something???

that was my evening. my family was all at my sister's school performance since before i got home from work. from then until about a 1/2 hour ago they were gone. i have just been sitting here doing nothing for like 5 hours. i finally fgot so fed up that i just took a drive. that cleared my mind for a while.. but it just gave me more time to ponder my bored loneliness. i feel like crap.

i really wanna talk to someone.. but i dunno what to talk about. here we go again.....